Utterly Pathetic!
I never had a problem with saying sorry when I’m mistaken. Never!
When I’m wrong and I know it, I apologize. I realize that apology does not fix much, but it’s the least one should do!
However, if someone expects an apology out of me where I believe is totally out of place, if I really believe that I did not do wrong, I simply won’t give it, or it would rather be a sardonic apology that still would go something like “I’m sorry if I can’t see where I’ve gone wrong”, or “I’m sorry you’re upset, this was not my intention, but that’s all I’m really sorry about”. And those kinds of apologies – the lame ones – I would only give the ones I still care for. For all I care however, if I’m not mistaken I do not apologize, if I am, I simply do.
Hmm…
So now, lately, I noticed that I apologize a lot! Not necessarily as a result of wronging others, but it’s like I have this compulsive need to say that I’m sorry!
Like for example…
“I’m sorry I said something that might’ve hurt you that other day”
“I’m sorry you went through trouble to see me”
“I’m sorry you had a fight with your sister”
“I’m sorry I cried that other day”
“I’m sorry I scared you or freaked you out”
“I’m sorry I was too sleepy I didn’t sit to hear you”
“I’m sorry you feel bad and I’m sorry I don’t know how to fix it”
Or
“I’m sorry I could be totally useless sometimes”
I hate it! I do! But I can’t help it sometimes!
If someone’s nice to me and I know I wasn’t so easy to take or if I was an emotional mess (which thankfully does not happen much at all, I think)… I just have to apologize though I know if they’re close enough it would provoke them to hear it.
If I type something that I so felt in the spur of the moment, and if it happens to hurt someone I like a lot, well of course I have to apologize then.
If I say something stupid or not smart enough or simply provocative, I still feel the need to say sorry.
If I’m being naive around much more experienced people I feel I have to apologize for my naivety.
If I cannot fully comprehend someone’s pain or anger, I am compelled to apologize for not being able to ease their pain or be of any sort of help at all.
But most of all, I feel like I should apologize constantly for I know I probably wronged others without my being aware of it! So just in case, lately, I apologize anyway. Like… well you never know, right?
Sometimes, I replace “sorry” with “thank you”, depending on the situation. That way I avoid saying “sorry” and I thank whoever for bearing with me!
It still gets provocative for those who know me too well. I swear I can’t help it. I try; I think I’m doing better than before! I’ll grow out of it in time, just don’t know when.
3aaaaa… this is utterly pathetic!
I’m sorry!
I mean… thank you for taking the time to read the…
Shit!
Okay that’s it…
Umm…
Yeah…
Have a good day I guess!
July 9, 2008 at 1:35 pm
Yeah,…I hate that too, but u know…
I found that I say sorry for things I may not have caused or were not intentional and I found out that most people don’t do the same.
So I kinda used the I-am-sorry-attitude for the people I most care about (though I find it hard sometimes) and screw others!
My point is, in most of the situations u face, people do not need ur sorry word because it just won’t make sense to them.
mmm….
Do u fear losing any of them?!!
July 9, 2008 at 1:56 pm
Hurricane,
what you said totally applies here, it’s pretty much the same thing! The compulsive apologetic attitude is basically done among those I care about! Do I fear losing them? well yes, but I know that my apology or lack of it will not be the cause of such loss. I think mainly I fear causing them trouble or irritation or feeling of lack of appreciation and gratitude from my side. I don’t know!I guess I just wish I could spare them the burden or the silliness or even the injustice that could be caused by me or anything else! hmm.. dunno…
July 9, 2008 at 2:08 pm
It is ur subconscious I guess coz I am like u .. sometimes I fear I hurt ppl uninetntially so I just appologize even if I was not wrong..
I dont think there is nothing wrong in that except that ppl take advantages of that nd get used u apologizing all the time…
July 9, 2008 at 2:18 pm
Dr. Invisible,
I don’t let people take advantage of my apologetic attitude (mind you, people take advantage of other attitudes that i have 
), see… I noticed I only apologize keteer w b habal keda to people who really mean a lot to me… and those never take advantage of me, in fact they hate it when I apologize that much!
July 9, 2008 at 2:32 pm
Ah sorry got ya
then the problem is very easy to solve:))
Stop saying I am sorry unless it is really required in the situation ur in !!
July 9, 2008 at 2:57 pm
You know what! I was writing that same post yesterday, except mine wasn’t about apologies.. IT WAS ABOUT RANTING!! I NEVER USED TO RANT, and now I don’t do anything but complain and complain and complain.. I didn’t post it cause it was too ranty, I got on my own nerves! And now I’m complaining about complaining too much!!Dammit!
July 9, 2008 at 3:09 pm
D,
so it’s prefectly okay I guess!
LOL.
Well I wouldn’t know awy since I don’t know you on a personal level… but your blog “ranting” is actually interesting and not very whiny.. if at all actually! So there… rant all you want (at least on the blog), ely msh 3agboh msh haye2rah w khalas
and.. e7em.. lol… I never used to rant as well.. bas it’s like blogging unleashed the ranting monster in me
July 10, 2008 at 1:04 am
Me too, I do say sorry a lot!! in fact I replace it with thank you in many occasions, sometimes men 3′eir monasba 7ata law kan eli 2odami howa eli taleb meni 7aga:) begad wallahi!! bas ana ba2a mesh 7asa en di moshkela. Ya3ni talama ba3melha btelka2eia keda w ma3a nas ana ba7ebohom, 7′alas. At least da ra2ie:).
July 13, 2008 at 9:57 am
Frustrated,
lol, heya msh moshkela bezabt, heya bas el mawdoo3 beyeb2a mostafez.. ya3ny ana lama wa7da sa7bety awy te2olly thank you 3ala 7aga 3abeeta aw sorry 3ala 7aga 2a3bat bab2a 3ayza 2ahaza2ha! so i understand that when i do the same my friends would just rather have me shut up. and some times beteb2a be zeyada… so it just gets weird!! i dunno!