“Why insist on being dorky?” – A question that intrigues me and troubles my otherwise peaceful sleep!
Okay…. bossy ba2a;
You need to focus
You need to do some little extra – yet ordinary – effort and just concentrate on what you should do
I need to reinvent, relocate, and reestablish a new focus to be the center of my constructive delusions.
My current focus is just asking for more aches damn it, and you don’t need that now do you Eva?I can totally handle it – the pain that is – but I don’t want to
I mean seriously, what kinda dumbass would I be anyway if I can avoid unnecessary pain and still choose not to huh? Come on Eva, you’re supposedly smarter that that… so enough messing around with your own head alright!
Don’t numb it, poke the covered up gash boldly, let all the poisoned blood come out, clean it, and let it heal. It might hurt a little but it’s for your own damn good. I repeat: DO NOT NUMB IT, listen to what I say and do not just nod like a retarded puppy, I need you to mean it when you say “yes sir that’s exactly what I’ll do”.
Now you know what you should do right? Get right to it and stop babbling pointlessly. Talk less, do more… pronto!
Yeah that’s the spirit! Good girl!
Tags: aches, Freak, mental notes, talk to self
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May 25, 2008 at 9:51 am
Oh, I need that push too!!
Maybe in a different way but…
Well, tell me if it worked,…
I hope it will
May 25, 2008 at 3:04 pm
yup..you go numb it…I get that already..you will go and obsess about not being dorky and not numbing it…as you do….hmm…have a long drive….clear your head and focus not on whether you r numbing your delusions or letting for a fact…just create new delusions instantly dear..thats how it works
May 25, 2008 at 8:52 pm
That’s the spirit.. Go Eva Goooo, and I loved “Like Water for Chocolate”, I read it all at once ta2reeban, but I think I would’ve liked it more if I were a bit younger!
May 25, 2008 at 10:51 pm
I’m beginning to suspect you of an emotional masuchist! in case u proved out to be one, I welcome you to the official club of psychological self-lashing
May 26, 2008 at 1:09 am
as a recently zoinked out zombie–i must say temporary numbness can make operations go by smoothly– the problem is coming out of it
you’ll be alright eva, you’re a fighter, you can sense it in every line and all the ones in between
May 26, 2008 at 8:41 am
Hurricane,
Hopefully it will, but it might take some good time… it’s not easy at all this time!
Leaflet,
lol, honey I can’t clear my head! I try to get distracted but those other devious delusions get me and numb me, so I need to focus on the opposing powers! umm… I think your comment contradicts itself? have you been writing in your sleep again?
D,
YEAAAH!
yeah I understand what you mean with the if you were younger thing. The book is amazing though, I love magical realism when it’s put right. it’s simply “magical”
Marooned,
loool! Not a masochist, I just try to find ways to “cure” myself even if it means I have to hurt it a little first! If I won’t do it, who would do it for me?
lol… YOU’RE a masochist though… careful there pal!
Daysleeper,
aww… thank yooou!! well… you are so right, it’s just that I’ve been numbing myself for too long now and I need to come out of it just like you said. I’m sure if I do the rest of the process would take care of itself… i think!
June 21, 2008 at 2:29 pm
Somehow i missed the point. Probably lost in translation
Anyway … nice blog to visit.
cheers, Pourer!!