That I Would Be Good
I have no expectations, no high hopes, and I’m supposedly prepared for the worst – should it come. Hence, getting disappointed is highly unlikely.
I understand many many things, including the fact that I don’t understand much much more things! I am aware of my ignorance and my naivety, but awareness alone counts for something.
I have a lot to say, yet usually end up saying none. The basic reason behind that would be… ummm… well there is no ONE basic reason; they’re many. If I’m to attempt to explain them in few brief single words I would say: Laziness, Futility, Quantity Vs. Allowed Time & Space, Brain Traffic, Tongue Slurring, and Constant Shifting of Thoughts.
Anyhooo, aside from all the shit I scribbled above (and the shit I would continue scribbling on this blog), I promised myself and my precious ones (the real and the imaginary) that no matter what… I would be good; in the sense that I would carry on and would not give up easily on things that truly matter. That I would be who I am and not lose sight of what that is. That I would not lose myself to the world, not completely. That even if I chose to deny realities and seek the company of illusions, I would eventually come back to manage through. That I would go through every phase and move to the next with lessons learned and minimum regrets. That my soul would not age but would only get wiser. That I would be eventually okay no matter what the hell happens. That I would be good… even if I lost sanity. *
*That I Would Be Good – Alanis Morissette
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April 22, 2008 at 1:24 pm
I LUUUUUUUUUUUUV this song, i luv alanis herself, she is a true lady that expresses what we feel.
that i would be good, even when there is no one around to prove me sane or not. right?
hafsa
p.s was surprised to know u r arabic, somehow at the begining u seemed not. welcome anyway eva. peace
April 22, 2008 at 1:53 pm
hehe…
Alanis is a goddess!
, w ba3den you sometimes left comments on my old blog so i’m not totally new 
i’m just trying to keep a low profile here (7assa enny hafshal fashal zaree3 :S )
and come onnn… ana masry wabooya masry
anyhoo, pleased to have you here as well
peace.
April 22, 2008 at 9:31 pm
she is a godess, have u seen the movie dogma? maskharah.
anyway, the interisting fact is that now u make me prone on knowing who u r? i did comment on ur old blog??? meen ya tara meeeee?
April 24, 2008 at 11:50 am
Yeay, Another Alanis fan! That i would be good, is just one of my absolute favorites and the choice of line for the blog title is just simply amazing!! Stay pure and be good, you obviously have the tendency to!
April 24, 2008 at 12:04 pm
D,
hehe… thanks youuu D.
and yeah.. howa feh zay Alanis?
April 25, 2008 at 11:15 pm
no no, its ok, dont reveal, not a problem at all eva, stay in the hide betetr ya binti.